I lost 4 lbs this week, which is good, but means that when i weigh in with the doctor wednesday, there is going to be ALOT of explaining to do..... so, I FREAKED ou and ate about 1,000 calories... and I don't know why but can't purge it... and it'sgong to go straight to my fucking ass because m body is in starvation mode.


I fucking hate all this shit.
I feel so fucking fat I want to fucking die.